RUNWAY.

Welcome to existance, potential is here.

2009-07-30T16:56:00.006+08:00

This has to be my one jobless afternoon in a long time.

Hello everyone, how you all been? I guess i better put some decent posts in this space before i ditch blogspot for tumblr (THANKS TO M!) But what the hell am i suppose to talk about? Not much except, i miss my neighbour with a cat named "Tikus".

Im currently pissed because somehow my fone's not able to send texts and this overwhelming emo state is kicking in bad. Ill ask someone to find out why. In the meantime, im hoping we're going for Tahlil tonight. I miss it.

Mocks are just a few days away and i aaam damn not prepared and its starting to smack me back to reality. Im not enjoying it one bit. And i havent been productive in a while, and its something i should get started on.

Should i leave everything? Should i go on? Should i give in? Its these times where Paramore and Switchfoot can becomes great saviours and make sense of everything. Sometimes i cant believe how things turn out. Then again, if things didnt turn out the way it did, i wouldnt be feeling any more human. Thanks to HF, i feel it. I feel like a solid, human being.

But how dare you say we're not as close as we used to be. I never thought of that. Its really sad to hear it coming from you.

I miss my babygals alot too, sko is really a bummer. I dont want anything to move. I want to cement everything to where i want em to be, so i can always keep em near. Selfish, but true.

Was suppose to add up some photos here but somehow the uploader isnt working at the moment hah :p

Now i wanna make a cheese sandwich. Turra~

VEVYGAL.

2009-07-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BABYGIIIRRRL!
Saturday night was awesome cause i get to steal your first kiss!
This year, everything's gonna go right for you. I can feel it in my old bones. I know you had a blast haha those tears were proof :D
This is just the beginning and for years to come, ill still have your back.
You always in my heart.

My thoughts, they let me down.

2009-06-23T18:40:00.013+08:00

Theres no comfort in the waiting room. Just nervous faces.

Okay, listening to Death Cab for Cutie every night, on REPLAY, on each song does not help my sleep-deprived mind. My holiday is not going the way i wanted it to be. I mean, just in certain parts. But the more i think its not gonna be good, its gonna TURN good. Right? Yes, cause thats how my logic is. And it works that way.. Somehow :p

Kendo workshop ended yesterday but it still feels like i have to wake up every morning at 8 for training. I guess i just miss it. I miss seeing everyone and i miss getting muscle sores and leg pains. I really do. It gives me a sense of relief and feels like im doing something right in my life. So during the workshop, i always leave early cause i had to be somewhere. And everytime i step outside the dojo, i have this heavy feeling in my heart. Like i wasnt suppose to leave. I WASNT, afterall, cause there was so much to do, so much to say, and so much laughter and fun to go through. I missed every closing ceremony and something good, no.. something AWESOME happens after im gone. Its so sad. I feel sad. Cause i didnt fully seize the day. I feel.. guilty. I might not be good at it, nor perfect, but my heart was full on for it. Thats what gets me coming back everytime.

Alex Senpai :D

And you, you still make me wonder sometimes. Your words, where do they come from? Did they come from your heart? Or did they come from your past experience and just decided to stamp them on me and called it "for you". I dont get it at times. I dont get why it hurts sometimes. And i dont fucking get why my defense mechanism aint kicking in cause i need it to work f something might go wrong. And you make me trip in my own words, i love it. You get me falling for you everytime, i have to admit that. And id never brush you off, id get distracted at times but i always come home to you. But sometimes my thoughts go to 'Youve had this before and now youre just doing the same thing but with someone else, while i never had this.' My first intention was to always be there for you, and that hasnt change. Im trying to be brave, but you just leave me weak. I dont want to begin this sentence with an "I" again, but I! get confused on what you really see. Maybe i shouldnt know everything, maybe i dont wanna know anything at all. Maybe it might hurt again. Maybe i understand too well. Maybe, just maybe its about you, HF. Thats a lot of maybes.

Fuck, this ship is sinking deep. So deep that, "I cant turn back, in fact i dont wanna turn back". Is there another word for love? Cause id like to say "I Love You" in codes.

Other pictures:

And lastly.. Stripper alert! :D

Haha you know i love it when you lift me up and spin me around :)

Gots to jet.
My thought is turned on you, xo.

I wanna be brave.

2009-06-18T12:22:00.004+08:00

WHAT --Have you people been up to this holiday? I know what im doing. Im spending my time with the people who are important to me, thats all :D

Anyways, more sensible pictures in my facebook. Cause im feelin less and less of the love for this space.

I love..

To the one very special sleepyhead.

2009-05-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

Stop reading my blog, cause omg i cant believe you found it :P Im officially embarressed. Are you happy now?

Fuck im really embarrssed. HAHAHAHA f i delete this, its on you :P

Your hair <3

2009-05-31T19:52:00.007+08:00

HELLO! So half of my AS exams are over and there are two papers left. Thank god. I went out last night to let out some steam and just to forget all the maths formulas and calculations that ive had in my head after my p6 exam. EXAM EXAM EXAM - they seem to occupy us all lately havent they? Well, pictures!

AISH, MAS, there you go, the pictahs :P

I cant sleep well lately. I TRY TO, but my mind wants to be alive all the time. I want to sleep. Help me sleep.

I miss faf and yus. And wanna, was good seeing you that night :)

Gnight, P.

You keep me warm.

2009-05-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

I sneaked out so i can see you, dumbass.

Hold me tight, under the stars.

2009-05-24T22:57:00.004+08:00

Say i suddenly have the urge to write something off my mind, how would it really be like? Its fucking 11 pm and i have sko morrow. MONDAY MORNING LAGI TU! But the hell with it. My past few weeks have been great, thanks to a certain someone, i find it is possible to find a human being who feels exactly the same as i do. In terms of our life experiences, our inner thoughts, i couldnt believe how amazing that person is. Ive really really grown to be more understanding cause i have a whole new perspective. But every new, wonderful thing comes with a price, doesnt it? Nowadays, it gets easier to keep things to myself cause i know that how things should be. It should be kept in secrets and safe, the outcome comes better that way. Talking bout my exams, man i am so out of focused thanks to laid back ways. Whatever, ill come through. That person's ways, thoughts, laughter, im addicted to. I keep going back to the past and digging reasons why things happen the way they do. Replaying every single details until i can find the answers and assure myself. Until then, a good friend tells me that i should just enjoy life while can, words that are so common yet mean a huge deal. He says i shouldnt get stuck in the past, says for me to move on, doesnt mean i have to forget. He says words that come from the heart are the best, yet i tell him theyre the most painful ones. Tonight i get a chance to smack myself to reality and get focused on the important things, thanks to his words, support and kindness. I dont know how i would survive blurry days without his solid reasonings. Simply, i would go insane without him. Dear friend, i hope youre reading this and i owe you much for your constant attention. Words like his doesnt mean im gonna start smiling and pay more attention to my surroundings, but they help me to survive, mentally. I cant say it enough, and you know ive got your back, thank you.

Faridah, sober!

Whats the cure to uncertainty?

2009-05-07T18:09:00.002+08:00

QUESTIONS are in my mind. These questions, are getting me off the edge.

HELLO! I guess id better update this poor space after neglecting and postponing it for so long. AS is freaking soon and its time to adopt revisionism!--> As The Impressionists, At First Hand would say. Anyway, i made this deal thing with myself that i wouldntgo for kendo last sunday, and decided half heartedly that two weeks ago, that sunday would be my last training. YEAH RIGHT, how can i quit?! How the hell can i keep myself from the one thing thats keeping me sane lately! Aaaand i cant understand how ANYONE can quit what they know, what theyve been doing on their most prime years, because of what? Pride? Bruised ego? Then just drown yourself in your own damn prideegoistic self then! At least i dont yknow, abandon. Cause thats how it is, "The Abandoned Troops" *BREATHE*

Coming back from that little outburst, im doing okay these days. Except today. Today sucked. But generally lifes been fun. Ive got a little bit of studying going on everyday (thanks to tuition). Hmm. I just got distracted and this is when the blogging-drive goes off.

Well, I caaant wait for sunday! Okay i think this sunday would be the last for the upcoming weeks. For my own good, and the people around me, ill do the right thing, and will hold my kendo off for a while. For a while only okay? Crazy conclusions. And why isit that all the good stuff tend to get crammed in one month? Guess what month now! Yea, June. And half of may. I dont have tution this sunday afternoon so i might as well take advantage of that. Right! I miss R P ethee sdtu and my number one texting buddy.

I smell chocola~ CIAO!

Curtains?

2009-04-21T21:21:00.004+08:00

When youre not around, i just feel a little down.
Keep trying to fake it, i just dont know how to say it.
Youre the song that i replay, replay, replay.

Me and this particular emo song are like this *crosses fingers*. Gotta jet mofos. AS bites.

Yesterday's leftovers' still bitter.

2009-04-18T12:52:00.002+08:00

Bobby Chin is in Brunei! And i wanna catch his shows :/

A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere. Im fucking 18 :D

2009-04-16T19:13:00.003+08:00

What id kill for irony right now.

12 April, i had thee best 18 years of my life. Spent it with my kinda people and some other people who i hoped couldve been there. But i love them non the less. I also spent my last day of being 17 with my girls and i couldve have ended that part of year of my life any better, tho i love you guyth! My 17th year, overall, was a great year and sadly i do have regrets. Then my first day on my 18th year of life began with a blast and i hope thats how its gonna be throughout. And apparently, many birthdays happened in sko after the 12th haha, so Happy birthday to those people. Lastly id like to thank those who came that day and i spent some of the most memorable times with em. And mucho mucho love to my girls for my birthday present, i love the football jersey you guys made and i appreciate everything you guys do, so please stop pms-ing lovahs :P

Yeah, i think i might break.

2009-04-09T22:22:00.002+08:00

Aish asked me to post this, so here it is :P I love you byhszxzX. And mom said i might get braces in december too. Cause she doesnt want me to lose weight during this final year. I think its a good idea though (:

Little doses of betrayal.

2009-04-08T17:48:00.003+08:00

I miss this. But soon, baby, soon :D Stuff has been hectic lately and i cant seem to bother about blogging these days. I got this picture from fafs blog so yeah, i love you paps. And all my vyhs-vyhs. I cant seem to focus my mind on this.. this AS thing. And ive been going for kendo less and less ): Cant say its all entirely MY fault, its mostly HER fault too. God i hate her. I hate looking at her face. Its almost too evil to watch her prance around HER HOUSE. I shouldt even be there in the first place. SO im putting all the shitty blaming on YOU, manipulator. I miss kendo, alot ):

This is a slow song, you in any hurry to speed it along?

2009-03-27T21:14:00.020+08:00

A reason for this sudden update would be my sudden mood to blog aand post some pictures up. My way of telling the world, i-am-doing-great :D

Ive recently got back from Niah Cave and that was awesome. My first time spelunking and i find it really amazing. It was an overnight stay and though i wasnt "used" to anyone there, but they were nice about it. No, they were awesome! Especially Alif Mahdini, Sufinaz, Zudin who kept making fun of me (but secretly i think its funny too), Kamil ;D and Izah. They made the last/first night memorable. And Kamil and everyone made the last day memorable , catch my drift if youre reading this? Thanks guys, thank you everyone (: And Miss Hart and other teacher and sister of Miss Hart of whom i shared a room with, it was an experience ;p

I thought he looked like the vocalist from Tokio Hotel. Must be the hair.

He was sakai about starbucks. Really, he WANTED to pose like this ;p

Some pictures are sceneries along the journey. Pictures might be retardedly arranged since well, im just cramming everything here. Oh well XD

After i got back from Niah, that night i went out with my galsxzssx. Yeah okay, my homeys and ended up having a sleepover at aishes cause the next day we had this adventure club hiking thing. If everyday was a non-stop health fest, i wouldnt complain [and no im not imagining it] that i am indeed gaining weight.

"Baru jua balik, tidur arah lain lagi" Mams was being.. mams <3

We live in a beautiful world.

Goodnight lovahs.

Oversensitive Sensors.

2009-03-20T23:10:00.005+08:00

Haha! Apa paps? Apa :P

I cant get out of this.. this state of being overclouded with negative thoughts.

One more time, we gonna celebrate! Have a blast everybody!

My math says you still owe me.

2009-03-20T22:31:00.004+08:00

1-4, Grr. I know someones happy about this [Zacky]. Boo you Zack. If you bring that shirt again this sunday, ill.. ill.. ill make you run around naked! There! How badass is that?

Turra lovahs from all over ;D

MASS PRODUCTIONS.

2009-03-20T19:45:00.004+08:00

Yessir! All eyes here people! Cause uh, I finally got my white Gihakama on thursday! According to mom, the TNT van arrived around 430 pm, and sadly i wasnt home that time. But thanks for the hard work wonderful delivery people! Im eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex-cited for sunday :D

Cause i wear the short shorts.

2009-03-20T19:21:00.004+08:00

I miss this! Bila lagi "gangz"? ):

I wanna tell you in your sleep that you inspire me.

Yep yep i cut my hair. More like, i bang-ed my hair. The old locks needed a new do hah. Its holidayyyyyyyyyyyyy toime :D

Not friends, but homeys. MAHALO!

2009-03-13T18:01:00.008+08:00

I loike him ^^

Han Yean/ Takeshi senpai!

Coolest terrorist ever.

Complaints? Eat this! @$#@!%$

Pictures are from the Japanese culture convention last night. I wasnt with people who were interested in japanese culture that night so i didnt really explore that much, huh guys :P Inda puas wah, so i wanna go again bah ): And the Doraemon movie was onnnn :D Overall, i rate it, a very sexy night (Y)

Mucho LOVE!

Where as i warm right up to people? Hah.

2009-03-06T19:59:00.006+08:00

Hello beautiful people! Or should i say, busy people. I chose the word busy cause thats exactly whats been going on lately. Trying to grasp the essence of mechanics, that is P4 maths, has kept me from being internetly posted. And tuition here and there has got me occupied. So yes, we are all BUSY during this year of our final (amin) Brunei sko-ling days. Pictures above are from mases barbeque, OH and you still owe me THE PENDRIVE mas, if youre reading this. And for gads sake, take driving lessons already woman!

Did i mention im a prefect? You know, hall monitors, event watchers, all that. I told my PS buddy, Jessica, about it, and she made it sound like me being a prefect was totally wrong -.- But thats probably true. Considering i am quite rebelious againts the sko uniform rules the goverment has forced on us for years. Ahh yes, i remember this thing that happened few years ago. There was a morning assembly and i had bio that first period. And course i was rushing to class and was at sea with the rest of the sko. But somehow, the principle saw the red socks i was wearing that day and just burst into the lab and demanded who was the one with red socks. So i had to give in and she gave me this lecture infront of the class blablabla. Then she asked me to throw my socks in the bin and i was sockless the whole day. I just felt guilty that the class time was taken up by that little incident. And they were a cool pair of socks too :/ So anyways back to being a Katok Sko prefect, i had my first taste of how it was like on the first day of the lower sixth orientation. And all i remember of the proper prefects duties i did was clapping at whatever the teachers and principal were saying, no disrespect to them though, organising the juniors, umm, skipping classes (haha), and boy crazy-ing with faf mas aish and yus? [Kendokaaaaa :D] But yeah i had fun doing all that and of course theres the tiring part. Oh yeah food distribution was fun also. Haha we arranged huge amounts of nasi ayam, nasi goreng, nasi katok and counted 32 of them for each BEs, followed with 32 bottles of Suci too ;D But i dont regret it and im lookin forward for the next activities to come. Come baby, come! And thanks Gbo for the cupcakes! It was damn good (Y). And i need to work on my Ashisabaki ): And more mechanics homework!

Ciao bella!

I thought it faded, but it never did.

2009-02-22T22:03:00.005+08:00

Papitoo and Yusoo!

And its sunday again! The day that usually marks a good day for me. THE day that ties up the whole week . I makes me go reminiscing on the events that happened for the past few days, and also the events that happened today. I gotta admit things turned out to be unexpected, like really twisted my head around and landed on joy land. Exaggerating much? Maybe, but tis true! Cause, cause, kendo's just the best :D And that other thing you know, you know. Thats Cai btw, and yall know rai. Status : sleepy sleepy, HALF ALIVE! Oh i watched the Punisher, and it was aw-aw-aw-awesooommeee! Gory, yet comical and sweet, and heart touching at the same time ;p Lastly, knowledge is power. Now i gotta jet, gotta jet! Oh wait, one more thing, my Gihakama is arriving soon :D I am indeed, ecstatic.

Fe fe reed dduuuh.

Thank you, senpai!

2009-02-17T21:59:00.005+08:00

Mariatoo and sheila! And lim han senpai. Sko kendo!

Kendo on Sundays, Cai and Umiiii senpai. Thanks for the ice cream treat umi senpai lol. But youre probably not reading this :P

Fuhh, reed, dah.

Beav-beav-beav-- Cassidy.

2009-02-17T21:08:00.004+08:00

My GP paper (above).
Helloooo people. Hows it going since my last wordly filled post? Lifes been good, really, and im glad about that. Sko work has been crazy tho, with a trig test and bio essay due saturday-- Ohmygaaad. Besides that, im enjoying my time. With kendo training in sko on tuesdays and thursdays, plus on sundays too :D Ahh i feel the tension fading away already with every swing i take with my shinai. And also during this years sudden-semi-rajin mode, ive got to understand some things. Like, why homeworks should be done in time, why i should sleep early every night, and why i should maintain my food intake. Cause if i dont, ill be left behind, in mind, body, soul (jeea right) Anyway, i cant stop watching Veronica Mars everyday, its like if i dont, i cant carry on with my sko work. Ah yes, sko, thats been the thing that clouds my mind daily. Plus additional boy-crazy talk with the girls (LOL, crazy prefect, damn sweet smile guy XD), and my chemistry teachers serious teaching skills which are unfortunately blur to me, and insanely hot maths classes, and boy crazy moments again, these make every day sko life iteresting haa. And sko soaks drama like craaazy. Good drama i mean. Lastly, I dont feel content just leaving my post like this, cause i dont know when creativity and ideas and the mood might strike, and i wont have a computer infront of me. But i gotta run. Run, baby, run!

Fe-fe-feridaaah.

GIve me MOOLAH.

2009-02-17T20:46:00.003+08:00

Getting dolled up for bouncer yeeeah ;p

UK exhibition day.

2009-02-17T19:35:00.003+08:00

Edge of the ocean.

2009-02-14T21:09:00.008+08:00

Hello! Its weird timing for me to update my blog now when i dont have any solid, good materials to write about but ill post something up anyway. Just pictorrs. Ill come back with good mahteriaals when i dont have sko stuff in the way. Or when its nights like this i can actually go online. And such. And such, and such. Ive got Ivy stuck in my head. Some random pictures which i think are level 1 alright.

I never knew id like it alot. Kendo, i mean. CIAO bella!

The Dandelions - On The 54.

2009-01-24T20:30:00.007+08:00

This is for a dear buddy of mine, shes unrealisticly 18 today, on the 24th of January, and its been a blast rolling with you mammah :D So happy birthday Yeuth! Have a good one love.

Just a lil bit of a romantic.

2009-01-08T22:13:00.004+08:00

HELLO! As nobody knows, im "studying" at Katok Sko. Its the fourth day today and its getting okay. Well i like the second day of sko to be honest [wtf?] And i lost my freagin bank book which i tell you, timing sucks! Cause i need it! I NEEEEED IT! *Pulls hair* AGH!

So lemme start over. Im a bit calm now. Hm so where was i? Oh right, sko. Skos okay. Just okay. I just have issues with.. everything. Well just bout my studies and all. Anyway! Reason why im just posting something new today, is cause reality just hit me and its really, and like i mean, really a new year. No more december. No more staying up late. Mooore tuition. Its crunch time. I mean, with constant nagging and reminder about exams to be taken in June, i should be working my ass off before then. But im still not sure.. about everything. I wanna talk bout my subjects cause i feel like it. Bio was hmm, i miss Cikgu Lina! Maths was, a bit confusing, GPs okay. CHEM! My chem is, well im still clueless in chem but im sure thatll change, cause the teacher changed, and probably, hopefully, hes good. Plus hes-- *wiggles eyebrows*. Yknow, this always happens. Whenever i try to write anything decent here, i lost it. I lost my words, my thoughts :S But then! Lifes too short to silly yourself over those very little matters. You might not know what to do, you might be lost at the moment, but in your way of finding your path, you might find the ride to your "goal" to be enjoyable. But what the hell do i know, im just talking crap (:

Take care people! F-f-f-eriduh.

3rd January was here!

2009-01-03T20:26:00.004+08:00

Today is SkinnyPojees birthday!

She like to pose fer mah cameruh.

It says "Happy 15 Pojee"! But the good days has just begun to roll eh? Have a BLAST BIZOO!

1st January Dinnah!

2009-01-02T00:24:00.004+08:00

Go Joget Faf ay!

Look clowsah, its me and yus on the laptop screen.

Im loving it, Faridah XD

Fruitsbasket's words of wisdom and courage. True that!

2008-12-30T23:32:00.005+08:00

I watched Twilight AGAIN. And its still aweeessoommmeee. Less punching Yus, and punching Aish this time tho :P Went back to Aishs place after that cause it was easier to get picked up from there rather than Gadong. And played around with the photobooth and stuff hahah. Nothing much to say. Im kinda speechless nowadays. Like, i dont talk that much than i used to. Reasons? Hmm. Aint spilling out here. Or maybe i DONT have reasons. Gonna put up some pictures cause without em, this blog is pretty much d-e-a-d. And New Years coming up, and i still dont know what the hell im suppose to do. I dont knoww WHAT i wanna do. But what im used to do-ing is making stuff up as i go along. This actually means i dont plan on planning anything. Make sense right? The hell course it doesnt. Nevermind. LEEB me be ;D

Uh wait. Seems like picture uploading is out cause some crap about.. i dont know. Some MB stuff. No way am i resizing anything tonight. Umm next time then :D Maybe. And im scared. "Of what?" Hmm. Kendo related.

CIAO BELLA!

And like a Gaijin it feels too.

2008-12-26T01:35:00.004+08:00

Hey hey planet earth. =.=\\// [Its those alien "we come in peace" symbols.] Actually have a picture of that. To post or not to post? Hah. Ill post it later cause, well just cause. Anyway i feel like joining Aikido? Akido? Shit im terrible at remembering the name. I wanna join it cause well i feel influenced by my cousin. She said its cool, so i bet its cool. Okaay one at a time faridah. I have yet to fully learn Kendo. Dang i miss kendo. Cant wait for kendo again, seriously. I said kendo three times. Sunday sunday! Mmbah. Gotta run yeah. Oh right, the picture. No big deal alright. Its just..

Funnily retarded.

Bye yall, Faridah.

CMBT.

2008-12-23T14:11:00.004+08:00

Know what i was suppose to do today? Was suppose to go bowling with rai, pojee, and some kendo people. But like, i woke up late, like around 1, so i missed my usual long period of shower and also, missed my ride cause when i did wake up, i was still deciding if i should go or not considering my limited getting ready time. So im here stuck at home, while theyre out there. But next time, im DEFINITELY definiteeeellyy, gonna make it. This is irritating. Being late all the time is irritating. Okay theres an idea for a new years resolution! Yeaahh. I might just consider it. Hmph. Bye. Oh wait, some pictures from Ka Ejas wedding :

lo/ve, Faridah.

KK was productive!

2008-12-21T19:42:00.019+08:00

I crave this DA most!

Gimme your tourist pose! Yeeaa okay. Watashiwa : Touristo. HAHA.

HEY BOY!

And, im hooked!!!

Santa, ive been GOOD lol.

"Look dude! Its Uncle Jim!"

Hey uncle Jim XD

Forgive the many one-hand-motion picture taking parts. And pictures arent in order, so yeah im lazy. And oh! I had kendo this sunday morning, and it was great. The senpais there are great. And there IS a sense of respect which is unusual for me. But great. And i said great three times cause its just awesome :D [Need to work on my vocab] Im officially under the Kendo spell, and nothing else.
Gotta run, this whole post took crazy hours to upload cause of some retarded connection. But updating is a must i guess. Have a blast on the remaining holidays!

Ciao bella! Fa ri dah.

"You turn every head, but you dont see me." "Ill put a spell on you." "Youll fall asleep." "When i wake you, ill be the first thing you see."

2008-12-15T18:34:00.002+08:00

That song's been in my head these past couple of days. And im lovin it :D Ill be away in KK for some days starting morrow. Ill be back by Saturday. That is all.

CIAO BELLA!

A-MA-ZING.

2008-12-12T21:04:00.008+08:00

Friday, December 12th. Lemme mark this day, as the day i watched TWILIGHT. It was awesome :D :D :D :D Makes me happy just by watching it hah -->Major loser! Someones gonna sleep good tonight haha. Yes, i is emotional.

The pictures are disturbingly blurry as hell. But what the hay :D Im so gonna catch Twilight again. And again.

Love love loveeee, Faridah.

Vegas baby.

2008-12-10T21:31:00.003+08:00

Okay, i just realised i got tagged by wanna in this thing. Haha. So heres it is~

RULES
#1 Do the “Letter MEME”.
#2 Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged.
#3 Copy the “How-to” Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog):
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but __1__. I think I realised it when/on __2__3__ and I saw __4__5__. I’m sure you’re __6__ enough to understand __7__.. I’m returning __8__ to you, but I’ll keep __9__ as a memory. You should also know that I __10__11__. __12__.

Love, (your name).

P/S: You’re so lifeless, __13__ (the name of person who tagged you).

1. What’s the colour of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What’s the colour of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What’s the colour of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Over joyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What’s the colour of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - How awful I’ve felt
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always thought of
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favourite activity when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks – Ugly pig
Foosball – Silly duck
Shopping – french kisser
Indulging for food – Cranky banana
Movies – Smelly Armpits
Snacks – Horny Wolf
Snooker – Tiny nipples
Bowling – Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities – Vain pot
Having a long talk – Nose picker
Taking pictures – Dumb bitch
Other – Burn yourself

Dear FAF:
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but Our horoscope doesn’t match. I think I realised it When I tripped on sesame seeds With Paris Hilton and I Sit on Manchester United’s goalkeeper. I’m sure you’re Scared enough to understand That Extreme Home Makeover sucks.. I’m returning Your ring to you, but I’ll keep Your neighbour Martin as a memory. You should also know that I Always thought of Embarrassing rash. Your everlasting enemy.

Love, Friduh.

P/S: You’re so lifeless, Cranky banana Wanna!

Anyone who reads this is automatically tagged. U might wana do it, you might not. But it fills the boredom a little. hah.

Nights (:

Ive been watching, somehow spaces between the world grew, how long till there're no traces of you? Do these desires become impossible wishes <3

2008-12-10T21:03:00.005+08:00

Hey there people of the same planet i live in.
Im going along. I think i am. Call it being a loser, i call it coping. Well, watching anime all day helps :D And maaaan! I cant wait to get away from here. Saaay, 16th? I really cant wait to go. And i cant wait for twilight this Friday baby! And something that really bugs me, is this slow downloading speed! Like, okay, Mimi told me downloading Bitcomet would make downloading episodes faster. But i really dont see the difference.. Anyway, been resting good these days. But i still miss it. Hah okay what am i talking about. I guess this is good for making up for the lack of words in my posts now. Then ill just stick to uploading pictures next time XD Gotta run.

Faridah misses your arms. -So tell me to stop, cause i cant.

"Non-living weird? " -"No : Living Mutated Weird" HAHAH.

2008-12-08T22:32:00.003+08:00

Mases current feet. HAHAH. So so sexy :P Just felt like posting these pictures up :D I love you guys. I miss you FAF.

Fa ri dah (name pronounciation) *spelling check*

AidilAdha! And not back from emo land. Hold on lil baby its the kaykaykay. - -Still missin you. Give me the green liiiiigght! Im ready to go right now

2008-12-08T21:27:00.009+08:00

Okay firstly, on Sunday i went to Mases shop, which she does great in running it btw (Y) I was bored so hung out there the whole afternoon.

So monday, today, was Aidil Adha. So the ritual was, raya at cousins place! I wore tudong at first okay, so dont nag on me for not wearing tudong on a Raya day at all hah.

I find Ajim (azim) cooking very interesting. This soon to be Junior high sko boy has potential model material. HAHA. Im right am i not, Rai?

From Tanjong Nangka, we went to Udas place at Rimba.

I say let it rock! and Bungsu's like, ill just rock my handbag.

Give meee the green liiiight. Im ready to go right nowwww. Im ready to go right now~ I are, Bar.

Feerriiidddaaah is in singing mode.

Slip me some of that lovin.

2008-12-07T11:34:00.005+08:00

Yeea Aish.

My godd, the worst stomach feeling ever :S

I know. I look craps. Love you two.

Texting with masrinehhh. And feeling like my belly was gona drop.

Never let you go shah. HAHA.

Have a good week people (:

Fu-fuh-riii-dah!

Shoot that knee.

2008-12-07T11:00:00.004+08:00

So whats been going on homeys? Yeea okay. Im good. I think i am.

See ya.

For some reason i seem to be falling for you.

2008-12-05T16:14:00.004+08:00

I no no edit.

HELLO! Guess im in 'that' mood to blog. Ive been going through some things. And so far theres no clarity. So i need clarity. Somebody help me get some, perhaps, you? May my state be called foolish or just a believer, but i see a bit of hope in there somewhere. So make it real, make me believe.

You have to believe me, im not a murderer.
Im just tired thats all. Nothing to do with you. Its you, i need and want.

Love love, Faridah.

Wanna leave you alone. But i just cant <3

2008-12-03T21:03:00.003+08:00

Sweat and Grime! (Y)

Kicking it back at Yuses.

Cause im likin it. Liking you.

Love, Freedah.

Cause Billy's got himself a gun.

2008-12-02T21:18:00.012+08:00

Im hyyyyyppppe today. Went out with shah, yus and khasaf. Thanks for the rides again yeah khasaf. Let me describe, we were all retarded today :D Aand, we visited Mas at kiulap for awhile. And and i miss you bebeh ): -Stop earning money and start spending it! And yeah, overall it was great. And FAF sorry i missed you at the airport just now, i couldnt stay very long love :S

Trying to get the perfect shot was gruelingly funny. It was like this:

I.am.retaaaard haa.

Cause we gangsters like that yeah Saf.

Yea what the hell cardo :P

You pout *points to the guy next to me*.

Blooper pictures okay!

And Yus was like this the whole day:

You crack me up beatch. Love you! (:

Bah bye! I love everyone, Faridah.

My first insticts were to--

2008-12-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

Yeah, Hi there.

Howve you been doing? Done anything interesting on this sacred holiday yet? No? Well thats alright. Theres still time (: I know i havent tho. And, i think its sad. I remind myself there are more free days to come. Tho those days go by pretty quick and without me even realising it. Before the holiday started, i kinda made a silent pact in my head to do something productive, beneficial, FUN, and other shits like that. I regret to say, no such awesomeness has happened. YET. So while my head is still full of exciting things i could be doing outside my cave, someday, or morrow, i shall move my arse off this couch and expand my knowledge, or, book of adventures. Until then, ill just finish up my Pirates of the Caribbean 3 movie im currently watching. Yeah pathetic i guess XD

I cant help but fall for you even more. Damn it. This wasnt suppose to happen. This wasnt part of the plan.

Much much love, Faridah.

Stumble to understand a fault.

2008-11-30T01:08:00.004+08:00

Okaay. Saturdays offically my first day of vacation! Well its actually sunday since its around 1 in the morning. Im up pretty late nowadays :S But what to do? If youre restless, youre restless. So whats this about ay. Well im kinda feeling down, and down right emo. House songs are all that im listening to nowadays. Yeah, pretty deep meanings lol. Whatever, i have the right to do so. Im excited for Kendo again morrow. Just hope i get reminded and NOT oversleep. That would be.. terrible to miss my second training. Shet. 0111 in the morning now. Trying to close my eyes but they just keep open. I need, omg, i want, You know what, Mas ): I havent even change yet! Crap crap crap. --What if i dont compromise? Im seriously tired. But i cant sleep. What will that result to? It will result to-- tmorrow morning looking retarded and extremely clumsy in training. No, really, i hope i dont oversleep haha. No focus ni esok :S Why am i CRACKED damn it.

Go on. Get gone,

GNIGHT!

Defect? I dont think so :D

2008-11-29T20:59:00.007+08:00

A Little bit from FAFs camera. Yep, must post (:

RETARD ALERT ;p

Celebrating Yuses new room, no? LOL.

I just like the effects. Anywaay hope yall having a good saturday. Kendo morrow is a must! I miss it :S I MISS who?

Bye!

Good food, good crowd, good times. Everyday faces (:

2008-11-27T22:02:00.013+08:00

Ezzy, ill miss ):

FAF!

Sir Alwin, my GP educa-tor. He said itll be 'Boring' with most of us leaving. I know right sir ):

Mahirraah! One of my best GP buddies. Im gonna miss you smartass ):

Spirit of a hustler, and the swagger of a college kid.

2008-11-27T20:54:00.012+08:00

HOLA SEXY BITCH!

Nights everyone.

Oh bollocks, its you again!

2008-11-24T18:39:00.002+08:00

*Taps my fingers on the table* Hmmm. I have this thought. This brave, brave thought that i should go ahead. I mean, my heart, mind and soul [danggg] is telling me to go for it. So i shall, in time, i hope (:

This dream of mine, im sure you have no interest in. FYI, acting stops right there. Thrill me, im sure you will.

Have a great week people! Far.

Uh oh, i feel the rush (:

2008-11-23T18:57:00.007+08:00

Went out on saturday night, which thank goodness, there was no tuition. Im not complaining but i deserve a break once in a while. It was fun and i love my friends.

Mas has a secret. LOL.

Facelift anyone?

The next day, which is sunday, i went for my frist kendo training. I was kinda awkward, but yeah i feel committed :D Yes, one thing i actually feel commited to. Im looking forward for next week (:

Damn tired after that. And sleepys much. Needs to go. Yeah i look fugly, whatever (: I need GG now.

See YOU!

Just do it motha.

2008-11-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

1) Take a recent picture of yourself or take picture of yourself right now.
2) Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair, just take a picture.
3) Post that picture with NO editing.
4) Post these instruction with your picture.
5) Tag 5 people to this.

I tagged:
1. Masrineh.
2. Yus.
3. Faf.
4. WANNA (:
5. Fai!

Please dont question when i stop and stare. I see your beauty flowing everywhere.

2008-11-19T15:47:00.003+08:00

The title is just lyrics. Like most of my titles heh. But it is for someone (: Anyways, im getting these Nice Vibes. Not nice-vibes. I mean, Nice *separate* vibes. And its great! Whats great? IT, is great! Right. Oh noooo. I just remembered i have maths test morrow. Algebra algebra algebra. And tuition again tonight. Alright then.. i guess.. i better.. get movin eh?

WHOS YOUR MOTO MOTO? Lol.

Bye people.

Ultimate Be-tray-al. Im so into you. I want you =8) Uh, Whatevs.

2008-11-18T21:41:00.004+08:00

Im suppose to be posting something here. What was it about again? It seems to be at the very back of my mind. Oh yeah! EXAMS ARE OVER BABY! Yessir! Ahh. No more late night cramming sessions. I can finally get some decent rest! And sleep too. Without any worries, yknow? :D Theres still maths test, but its not really, majorly, very, grande important. Right? Right! When u see me in sko, know that im walking carefree, without any care at all. Hah. Except when its really hot outside. Anyyywaaaay! Im feelin hype for some reason. Im excited for Kendo :D Im excited for Jogging :D Im excited bout exercising :D Very very very. Gimme more activities please? Bungee Jumping? Rock Climbing? HELLS YEAH! Not that im gonna do em anytime soon :/ But if i can, ima be the first in line XD No i have not gone Loco. Yet. And its been one of the best day so far (: Reasons? Oh, plenty. So tmorrow will probably be a sucky one. Its that whole Karma, Balance thing. Whats that law.. what goes up must come down? Yeah thats the one. Im feelin sleepy now. Guess i better go off to bed. Nnnnnnnow. Now!

Have a great week you beautiful people!

Much love, Far.

This is the WAIT remix.

2008-11-16T18:21:00.004+08:00

Yeah, HELLO! Watchu beautiful people been up to? Im here, trying to study for my final paper, the paper of all papers, the king of studydom-- Bio paper 2! But did u get the last part? The TRYING part. Unfortunately, study mode hasnot kicked in yet. Sometimes, something would strike motivation in me, but after seconds, it was gone. Dang it. A whole Sunday afternoon, Wasted. Ah needs to study. Ah gots to study. Er okay. But despite my lack of hard-core studying, im somehow feeling at bliss. What, you ask, has to do with it? No it doesnt have anything to do with Veronica Mars', the ever so irresistable, tortured bad boy, Jason Dohring. Nevermind. Bliss is gone. Now comes hunger. I beta go. This is the part where i dont make sense, and end this post with these gorgeous thangs:

Take care people. Much love, FAR.

THE BIG ONE EIGHT.

2008-11-11T15:32:00.016+08:00

Happy birthday to my best pal, Masssrrinniiiii! On her birthday she said, "eh, did u forget my birthday?!" Gimme some credit woman. Course i didnt! :D These events are for her birthday. Enjoy this moment, this year and the more years to come. I love you from your fashion heels up to your designer tops.

Yes, this one right here :P

AGH, Far :p

HAVE A GREAT ONE LOVE :D

Oh Boo.

2008-11-09T20:43:00.002+08:00

Why is it whenever i post up something in words, it has to be an emo one. Bit of a spoiler aint it (: This is one of those times i would be frustrated bout something, and end up forgeting what i was being frustrated about. Wait lemme think.. Do i have gp homework? Or bio homework or maths homework. Hm, ill check later. If i dont forget and be dead [fall asleep] before that. I guess heres the thing, ive got bio paper 2 left and then ill be, free? HAH! Never will that happen. Will never happen that. But oh right! Saturday night was football night and it was fuunn :D YOU shouldve been there. Might be good to see you that time. But then Man. U. lost so that part was a bust. The thrill, the sillys and the hotness *and the ohmygod! so cute!* was what i needed for these busy weeks though (: Its gonna be tiring and full of mood swings, but i have to get through it(s). I dont know how else i can deal with it. But if U were always around, i know ill be fine. Cause you were all i really needed at this moment and maybe for a long time too. Couldnt ask for a better thing that that. But then again~ Hah better stop with the cornyness. Hm? =8) So ask again why am i being like this?

I cant help it. I need a distraction.

Hope yall had a great weekend, and greater weekends to come. Far.

Going back and forth.

2008-11-06T16:43:00.009+08:00

I love.

Hey Demo.

Ayy Adib.

Ezzy :p

I won twice playing againts this guy. He let me win tho. I bet he did :P

But dang, i look as fugly as ever :S

Much love, Far.

DB, AR, NF. JUST HEAR ME OUT, THE SUN HASNT SET.

2008-11-04T13:19:00.003+08:00

HELLO! I sorta miss blogging. Hah so anyways, my AS maths are done with. And im only left with AS bio paper 1 and paper 2. And its in a few days.. :S AGH. So its pretty much kusut time. And now-- im blank. I forgot what i was gonna blog about.

Lets see. Where do i start ay~ Umm. OH yeah, i was gonna post some pictures up but maybe next time. Yes, im blogging on limited time here before i have to go. OH, right! Sigh. Im gonna bitch plg ni. Bitch saja, yes? Naah. Wth, make up your mind.

Heres something, hahah. Nah. Nemind. -How do i say it? Seriouslyyyyy. I forgot what i wanted to type. And yeah, i just had to mention it, "them". Agh! Nevermind. The words are still lost. Itll pop up sometime in the day, or night.

Laters.

Rock, Band.

2008-10-31T20:13:00.007+08:00

I love yusyy :D

Shout out to mas! XD Miss you! Wanna kiss you.

I love faf :D

And I love shah :D

Maybe, if my heart stops beating. Cause, uh--

2008-10-25T23:11:00.020+08:00

Oh, HIGH :D

2008-10-25T18:27:00.034+08:00

Q-q-qaays/ Kay.

My oh so sexy bio class :D

Grabbed from wans :D

Thats how we do in the west side?

Overall it was a great day. Despite acting UNTOTALLY like myself, it was fun :D

But uh.. IM CRACKING! CRACKING DAMN IT! CRACKING! I NEED, I NEED.. UH, UGGGH. CRACCCKKIIINNGGGG. My god, save me.

Far.

Like, Uh.

2008-10-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

I know youre probably busy, and not even reading this. But yeah, i miss you. I know when youre touching down, but its just nice f you DO text or call. Im restless and a little anxious. So text. Or call. Whatever you like. And again, i miss you. I cant wait to see you.

My little DECOY, im not sorry yet. I THINK WE HAVE AN EMERGENCY.

2008-10-22T20:15:00.005+08:00

Lemme start this post with an ugh. So todays october the 22nd, and one of the crappiest day to be seen so far. But i bet plenty of people markd this day as their crappiest too. It was like a.. chain of events, you see. Plus, UGH. UGGGGHH. UGH! I know wrecking the keyboard and whining wont help. I just want today to end with at least one good thing. Like maybe.. yeah okay. Im probably just over reacting. This whole day didnt happen on purpose, did it? Was it planned or something? Ima go rest my head now. -Yeah, it doesnt show, does it?

One more thing :

I miss my camera casing! Where the hell did it go? ):