Hello everyone, how you all been? I guess i better put some decent posts in this space before i ditch blogspot for tumblr (THANKS TO M!) But what the hell am i suppose to talk about? Not much except, i miss my neighbour with a cat named "Tikus".
Im currently pissed because somehow my fone's not able to send texts and this overwhelming emo state is kicking in bad. Ill ask someone to find out why. In the meantime, im hoping we're going for Tahlil tonight. I miss it.
Mocks are just a few days away and i aaam damn not prepared and its starting to smack me back to reality. Im not enjoying it one bit. And i havent been productive in a while, and its something i should get started on.
Should i leave everything? Should i go on? Should i give in? Its these times where Paramore and Switchfoot can becomes great saviours and make sense of everything. Sometimes i cant believe how things turn out. Then again, if things didnt turn out the way it did, i wouldnt be feeling any more human. Thanks to HF, i feel it. I feel like a solid, human being.
But how dare you say we're not as close as we used to be. I never thought of that. Its really sad to hear it coming from you.
I miss my babygals alot too, sko is really a bummer. I dont want anything to move. I want to cement everything to where i want em to be, so i can always keep em near. Selfish, but true.
Was suppose to add up some photos here but somehow the uploader isnt working at the moment hah :p
Now i wanna make a cheese sandwich. Turra~
Labels: Im outta time, oasis
VEVYGAL.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BABYGIIIRRRL!
Saturday night was awesome cause i get to steal your first kiss!
This year, everything's gonna go right for you. I can feel it in my old bones. I know you had a blast haha those tears were proof :D
This is just the beginning and for years to come, ill still have your back.
You always in my heart.
Saturday night was awesome cause i get to steal your first kiss!
This year, everything's gonna go right for you. I can feel it in my old bones. I know you had a blast haha those tears were proof :D
This is just the beginning and for years to come, ill still have your back.
You always in my heart.
Labels: Cake butter
My thoughts, they let me down.
Theres no comfort in the waiting room. Just nervous faces.
Okay, listening to Death Cab for Cutie every night, on REPLAY, on each song does not help my sleep-deprived mind. My holiday is not going the way i wanted it to be. I mean, just in certain parts. But the more i think its not gonna be good, its gonna TURN good. Right? Yes, cause thats how my logic is. And it works that way.. Somehow :p
Kendo workshop ended yesterday but it still feels like i have to wake up every morning at 8 for training. I guess i just miss it. I miss seeing everyone and i miss getting muscle sores and leg pains. I really do. It gives me a sense of relief and feels like im doing something right in my life. So during the workshop, i always leave early cause i had to be somewhere. And everytime i step outside the dojo, i have this heavy feeling in my heart. Like i wasnt suppose to leave. I WASNT, afterall, cause there was so much to do, so much to say, and so much laughter and fun to go through. I missed every closing ceremony and something good, no.. something AWESOME happens after im gone. Its so sad. I feel sad. Cause i didnt fully seize the day. I feel.. guilty. I might not be good at it, nor perfect, but my heart was full on for it. Thats what gets me coming back everytime.
Alex Senpai :D
Fuck, this ship is sinking deep. So deep that, "I cant turn back, in fact i dont wanna turn back". Is there another word for love? Cause id like to say "I Love You" in codes.
Other pictures:
And lastly.. Stripper alert! :D
Haha you know i love it when you lift me up and spin me around :)
Gots to jet.
My thought is turned on you, xo.
Labels: Graveyard Girl
I wanna be brave.
WHAT --Have you people been up to this holiday? I know what im doing. Im spending my time with the people who are important to me, thats all :D
Anyways, more sensible pictures in my facebook. Cause im feelin less and less of the love for this space.
I love.....
Anyways, more sensible pictures in my facebook. Cause im feelin less and less of the love for this space.
I love..
Labels: I wanna let go of all the things ive done
To the one very special sleepyhead.
Stop reading my blog, cause omg i cant believe you found it :P Im officially embarressed. Are you happy now?
Fuck im really embarrssed. HAHAHAHA f i delete this, its on you :P...
Fuck im really embarrssed. HAHAHAHA f i delete this, its on you :P
Your hair <3
HELLO! So half of my AS exams are over and there are two papers left. Thank god. I went out last night to let out some steam and just to forget all the maths formulas and calculations that ive had in my head after my p6 exam. EXAM EXAM EXAM - they seem to occupy us all lately havent they? Well, pictures!
AISH, MAS, there you go, the pictahs :P
I cant sleep well lately. I TRY TO, but my mind wants to be alive all the time. I want to sleep. Help me sleep.
I miss faf and yus. And wanna, was good seeing you that night :)
Gnight, P....
AISH, MAS, there you go, the pictahs :P I cant sleep well lately. I TRY TO, but my mind wants to be alive all the time. I want to sleep. Help me sleep.
I miss faf and yus. And wanna, was good seeing you that night :)
Gnight, P.
Labels: My thrills
You keep me warm.
I sneaked out so i can see you, dumbass.
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Say i suddenly have the urge to write something off my mind, how would it really be like? Its fucking 11 pm and i have sko morrow. MONDAY MORNING LAGI TU! But the hell with it. My past few weeks have been great, thanks to a certain someone, i find it is possible to find a human being who feels exactly the same as i do. In terms of our life experiences, our inner thoughts, i couldnt believe how amazing that person is. Ive really really grown to be more understanding cause i have a whole new perspective. But every new, wonderful thing comes with a price, doesnt it? Nowadays, it gets easier to keep things to myself cause i know that how things should be. It should be kept in secrets and safe, the outcome comes better that way. Talking bout my exams, man i am so out of focused thanks to laid back ways. Whatever, ill come through. That person's ways, thoughts, laughter, im addicted to. I keep going back to the past and digging reasons why things happen the way they do. Replaying every single details until i can find the answers and assure myself. Until then, a good friend tells me that i should just enjoy life while can, words that are so common yet mean a huge deal. He says i shouldnt get stuck in the past, says for me to move on, doesnt mean i have to forget. He says words that come from the heart are the best, yet i tell him theyre the most painful ones. Tonight i get a chance to smack myself to reality and get focused on the important things, thanks to his words, support and kindness. I dont know how i would survive blurry days without his solid reasonings. Simply, i would go insane without him. Dear friend, i hope youre reading this and i owe you much for your constant attention. Words like his doesnt mean im gonna start smiling and pay more attention to my surroundings, but they help me to survive, mentally. I cant say it enough, and you know ive got your back, thank you.
Faridah, sober!...
Hold me tight, under the stars.
Say i suddenly have the urge to write something off my mind, how would it really be like? Its fucking 11 pm and i have sko morrow. MONDAY MORNING LAGI TU! But the hell with it. My past few weeks have been great, thanks to a certain someone, i find it is possible to find a human being who feels exactly the same as i do. In terms of our life experiences, our inner thoughts, i couldnt believe how amazing that person is. Ive really really grown to be more understanding cause i have a whole new perspective. But every new, wonderful thing comes with a price, doesnt it? Nowadays, it gets easier to keep things to myself cause i know that how things should be. It should be kept in secrets and safe, the outcome comes better that way. Talking bout my exams, man i am so out of focused thanks to laid back ways. Whatever, ill come through. That person's ways, thoughts, laughter, im addicted to. I keep going back to the past and digging reasons why things happen the way they do. Replaying every single details until i can find the answers and assure myself. Until then, a good friend tells me that i should just enjoy life while can, words that are so common yet mean a huge deal. He says i shouldnt get stuck in the past, says for me to move on, doesnt mean i have to forget. He says words that come from the heart are the best, yet i tell him theyre the most painful ones. Tonight i get a chance to smack myself to reality and get focused on the important things, thanks to his words, support and kindness. I dont know how i would survive blurry days without his solid reasonings. Simply, i would go insane without him. Dear friend, i hope youre reading this and i owe you much for your constant attention. Words like his doesnt mean im gonna start smiling and pay more attention to my surroundings, but they help me to survive, mentally. I cant say it enough, and you know ive got your back, thank you.
Faridah, sober!
Labels: Dont forget
Whats the cure to uncertainty?
QUESTIONS are in my mind. These questions, are getting me off the edge.
HELLO! I guess id better update this poor space after neglecting and postponing it for so long. AS is freaking soon and its time to adopt revisionism!--> As The Impressionists, At First Hand would say. Anyway, i made this deal thing with myself that i wouldntgo for kendo last sunday, and decided half heartedly that two weeks ago, that sunday would be my last training. YEAH RIGHT, how can i quit?! How the hell can i keep myself from the one thing thats keeping me sane lately! Aaaand i cant understand how ANYONE can quit what they know, what theyve been doing on their most prime years, because of what? Pride? Bruised ego? Then just drown yourself in your own damn prideegoistic self then! At least i dont yknow, abandon. Cause thats how it is, "The Abandoned Troops" *BREATHE*
Coming back from that little outburst, im doing okay these days. Except today. Today sucked. But generally lifes been fun. Ive got a little bit of studying going on everyday (thanks to tuition). Hmm. I just got distracted and this is when the blogging-drive goes off.
Well, I caaant wait for sunday! Okay i think this sunday would be the last for the upcoming weeks. For my own good, and the people around me, ill do the right thing, and will hold my kendo off for a while. For a while only okay? Crazy conclusions. And why isit that all the good stuff tend to get crammed in one month? Guess what month now! Yea, June. And half of may. I dont have tution this sunday afternoon so i might as well take advantage of that. Right! I miss R P ethee sdtu and my number one texting buddy.
I smell chocola~ CIAO!...
HELLO! I guess id better update this poor space after neglecting and postponing it for so long. AS is freaking soon and its time to adopt revisionism!--> As The Impressionists, At First Hand would say. Anyway, i made this deal thing with myself that i wouldntgo for kendo last sunday, and decided half heartedly that two weeks ago, that sunday would be my last training. YEAH RIGHT, how can i quit?! How the hell can i keep myself from the one thing thats keeping me sane lately! Aaaand i cant understand how ANYONE can quit what they know, what theyve been doing on their most prime years, because of what? Pride? Bruised ego? Then just drown yourself in your own damn prideegoistic self then! At least i dont yknow, abandon. Cause thats how it is, "The Abandoned Troops" *BREATHE*
Coming back from that little outburst, im doing okay these days. Except today. Today sucked. But generally lifes been fun. Ive got a little bit of studying going on everyday (thanks to tuition). Hmm. I just got distracted and this is when the blogging-drive goes off.
Well, I caaant wait for sunday! Okay i think this sunday would be the last for the upcoming weeks. For my own good, and the people around me, ill do the right thing, and will hold my kendo off for a while. For a while only okay? Crazy conclusions. And why isit that all the good stuff tend to get crammed in one month? Guess what month now! Yea, June. And half of may. I dont have tution this sunday afternoon so i might as well take advantage of that. Right! I miss R P ethee sdtu and my number one texting buddy.
I smell chocola~ CIAO!
Labels: Did we fly to the moon too soon?